It’s 3 o’clock, Time to Pray

Chapel of the miraculous image of the Merciful Jesus and the tomb of St. Faustina Krakow, Poland
Father Pat and I Krakow, Poland

I go to  bed every night with anxiety. I make the Sign of the Cross, followed by a big sigh, not caring that the sound will wake Mike. We need each other’s encouragement. He talks, and just hearing his voice gives me comfort. Last night I asked him, “If I got the virus, do you think I would survive?” He gently answers exactly what I wanted to hear. These morbid conversations are real, and we are all thinking and wondering the “what-ifs.” But I also see the big picture and know that God is in control. Yes, the human side of me questions why, but I know full well the God that I serve. Throughout the night when I pray, the Lord shows me the faces of family and friends and I bombard the heavens on their behalf. It’s a time of great travailing, and I do it until my mind finally gives in to much-needed rest. Whether we like it or not, we are all living a cloistered life; I choose to use this time to pray.

The Up Side of the Virus

In the twenty years as head of a ministry to the homeless on Skid Row in Los Angeles, I, along with others, have prayed for the displaced to find shelter. Praise be to God, many of homeless are being sheltered in California. It took this virus to finally send immediate help to them. We are grateful to God for this quick action from our government. You see, we always had the answer to this dilemma, but God had to make the move for us.

The Diary and the Divine Mercy image

All of the children are home safe. Who will dare take a gun to them in empty school buildings? No more gun shootings in schools! The children are not subjected to the controversial sex education that the state is trying to indoctrinate with them either. We thank God for this as well. He is moving in our midst, and though we cannot see Him, He is present.

 

The Diary

Years ago I purchased “Divine Mercy in My Soul,” the Diary of St. Faustina. I have read some passages of the 700-page diary over and over again, receiving new revelations each time. No, this is not the Bible, but they are Jesus’ words spoken to St. Faustina. (Diary, 1487)

Jesus: “Tell me all, My child, hide nothing from Me, because My loving Heart, the Heart of your Best Friend, is listening to you.” 

These word spoken to St. Faustina are also spoken to us, and at this time we need all the reassurance we can get. Jesus is with us every step of the way! (Diary, 1486)

Jesus: My child, do not be discouraged. I know your boundless trust in Me: I know you are aware of My Goodness and mercy. Let us talk in detail about everything that weighs so heavily upon your heart. (Diary 1487) 

Jesus: Talk to Me simply, as a friend to a friend. Tell Me now, My child, what hinders you from advancing in holiness?

I cherish these words because I know without a doubt that I can go to our Lord and speak to Him as I would a friend. Jesus is the Friend we all long for. He is the voice to the fatherless Who embraces us with mercy. He is the voice of a Friend who will never depart from us. I understand this with all the depth of my soul because I want to feel this closeness to our Lord. I want others to understand the peace that comes with this. Even through this unknown virus, no one person can give us the right answers; but God can reassure us of His Divine Mercy, and that is all we can cling too.

My Connection with St. Faustina

On April 20, 2000, I was in Rome. We traveled to the Holy Land for twelve days, and from there we visited Turin. Mike was waiting for us in Turin. This was the year that the Holy Shroud was venerated and an exact replica was exposed at the Cathedral of Saint John the Baptist. To this day the original Shroud is in the basement of this church. From there via bus we made our way throughout Northern Italy, one the most picturesque parts of this country. Our tour bus meandered through what seemed to be hundreds of tunnels, with the majestic Mediterranean as our guide. When we arrived in Rome, we had tickets for the audience with Pope John Paul II. No one in our group was aware of the Canonization of St. Faustina on the day of the visit. In all honesty, I had never heard of her. I  remembered a picture of St. Faustina being rolled down from one of the massive windows of St. Peter’s, and being part of a loud, cheering crowd when her sainthood was announced. It would take me another five years to visit Poland and to fully understand the impact that she has had on millions of lives, mine included. This trip would prove to be one of the most eventful for Mike and me because at the same time we renewed our wedding vows at St. Paul’s Outside the Walls.

Divine Mercy

St. Faustina was seven years old when Jesus first called her. At the age of fifteen she had joined the convent of the Sisters of Our Lady of Mercy in Warsaw. To the world she was an uneducated, normal individual, but to God she was singled out to be Apostle of Divine Mercy. Jesus asked St. Faustina to make an image as He appeared in her vision. St. Faustina commissioned an artist to draw a picture of Jesus the Divine Mercy. On the bottom of the painting are the words “Jezu Ufam Tobie,” which translates “Jesus I trust in You.” (Diary 299) Jesus: The two rays denote Blood and Water. The pale rays stand for the Water which makes souls righteous. The red rays stand for the Blood which is the life of souls…These two rays issued forth from the very depths of My tender mercy when My agonized Heart was opened by a lance on the Cross. These rays shield souls from the wrath of My Father. Happy is the one who will dwell in their shelter, for the just hand of God shall to not lay hold of him. I desire that the first Sunday after  Easter be the Feast of Mercy. 

Why we pray at 3 o’clock

We pray at 3 o’clock because our Lord died on the Cross at this hour; this is the hour Divine Mercy. At that hour the earth shook, and the sky gave way to darkness for three hours! We must remember what He sacrificed for us! We must keep in mind his suffering on Cross so that we never forget what He went through for us! Yes, the crucified Christ wants this image to remain in our hearts so when we gaze upon the Crucifix we will  feel the love He has for us, so we get convicted if we are not serving Him the way we should. You will never experience the fullness of His love until you understand this mystery.

Matthew 27:45-46 New American Bible (Revised Edition) (NABRE)

The Death of Jesus. 45 From noon onward, darkness came over the whole land until three in the afternoon. 46 And about three o’clock Jesus cried out in a loud voice, “Eli, Eli, lema sabachthani?” which means, “My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?”

Matthew 27:51 New American Bible (Revised Edition) (NABRE)

51 And behold, the veil of the sanctuary was torn in two from top to bottom.The earth quaked, rocks were split,

(Diary 1572) Jesus: I remind you, My daughter, that as often as you hear the clock strike the third hour, immerse yourself completely in my mercy, adoring and glorifying it; invoke  its omnipotence for the whole world, and particularly for poor sinners; for at that moment mercy will open wide for every soul. In this hour you can obtain everything for yourself and for others for the asking; it was the hour of grace for the whole world  –  mercy triumphed over justice.

May His Divine Mercy be with you. If you have asked me to pray for you, please know that my obedience is to the Lord. I will continue to intercede on your behalf until the Lord releases me from my prayer obligation.

 

 

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Waiting for the World to Change

Joshua 1:9 New American Bible (Revised Edition) (NABRE)

I command you: be strong and steadfast! Do not fear nor be dismayed, for the Lord, your God, is with you wherever you go.

 

Happier days with my beautiful grandchildren

Daily Mass

With a rosary wrapped around her hand she always steps into the Adoration Chapel before Mass. I just know her as Joy. We always greet each other with broad smiles, never making small talk because we have church business to attend to. Joy and her husband are part of a community of daily Mass attendees. Ann-Marie sits three rows ahead of me, and Robert always sits directly in front of me. Virginia usually sits in the same row as me;  Mike, a tall Eucharistic Minister, sits almost in the last pew. Mike, Maria, Vickie and I and a handful of others are part of the 6:15 a.m. Eucharistic team. I miss Father John and Father Charles’ homilies, and Glen, who faithfully assists them during weekday Masses.

Thanking my precious son Mikos for delivering groceries

When I was sick with a cough earlier this year I did not give out communion. I tried to count how many of us attended daily Mass;  I lost count at 70. All religious institutions  are on a forced sabbatical; no Mass until God knows when. My heart aches because we are unable to receive communion, and I realize we are all suffering the same fate.

Stay-At-Home

Mike and I have taken the Stay-at-home advice from our governor seriously. We have not left our home in over a week. Last Monday, on March 16, before the announcement of the church closing, I went one last time to Adoration as I was scheduled from four to five that evening. Our son has been warning us for days not to go out at all. Our daughter Sonja has nicknamed him “Chicken Little” because his advice is the same for her as it is for us, Mikos is lovingly looking out for our well-being. As I was leaving I told Mike, “Please don’t tell the kids that I’m going to church!” Mike answered, “Ok, but can you swing by the El Pollo Loco drive-through to pick up some chicken?”  I was feeling a bit guilty, but I went anyway.  The doors to the church were swung open. The natural light clearly showed the reflection of fingerprints on the wooden pews, so before I sat down I took Clorox disinfecting wipes and cleaned the pew in front of me and the one behind me.  Before settling down to pray, I looked around to see who else was at Adoration. I counted seven persons; we were all spread apart. I prayed my usual prayers, but this time the burden of the world was on all of our shoulders. My prayers were fervent, and I felt the true comfort of the Lord the entire time I was there.

El Pollo Loco

I left the church refreshed and spirit-filled. Then it happened, my phone rang. I could see that it was our daughter Sonja. I touched  the screen to answer the call.  Her first question was,”Why are you in the car?” Sonja has a tracker on my phone because I spend so much time with her kids. I could feel the blood rush to my face; my throat dried up when I nervously answered, “I went to Adoration!  Please don’t tell your brother!” “Mom, just go home,” she replied. I didn’t dare tell her I was on my way to El Pollo Loco. Then all of a sudden, while I was waiting in the drive-through, I felt my body temperature rising. My forehead felt warmer than usual. Then I started to cough, not just any cough, but a dry cough. I told myself, “I just need to hydrate .” I took some water and started to chug it, but the water got all over my blouse. “Oh my God! Did I get this virus?” By the time I finally reached the window, I had written myself  off as a goner.

3 o’clock prayer time with my grandkids

When I got home, I quietly placed the bag of chicken on the counter. Another cough! I sanitized my hands and grabbed my phone. I remembered seeing a post about the early warning signs of the coronavirus and what we needed to do: gargle with vinegar, warm water and salt.  As soon as Mike went to bed I did just that. My self-talk was a rambling dialogue of panic! “Should I sleep with Mike? If I do, we will both be doomed! Should I tell him?” I fell asleep praying. This is a perfect example on how panic sets in, and how our mind runs away with imagination, taking it to new levels of anxiety. Since then I have not gone out.

Daily prayer time

My Grandkids

The hardest part of this Stay-At-Home order is not seeing our grandchildren. On March 19th, we celebrated the 8th birthday of our youngest grandson Jacob. Mike and I had already purchased a gift for him, and Sonja was going to drop off some Chick-fil-A and pick up the gift. The boys wanted to see us. From a good distance we greeted them. Then I lost it and started crying; I cried a good cry. Later I pulled myself together through prayer.

Jacob’s virtual party!

The Holy Spirit gave me a great idea on how to stay connected with all four of my grandkids. For the past week we have been FaceTime praying. I miss their humor because all of my grandchildren are funny. It makes a big difference in our lives to get together like this. The boys impose funny faces over their heads, some not so appropriate. Right before Maddie  joins the conversation, her brother accuses her of being unholy. The four of them have been so gracious in praying at 3 o’clock. After this delightful phone call, I pray the Divine Mercy Chaplet.

My Prayer:

Dear Lord, we are all anxious  and pray for this to pass. Just as You did for the Israelites, pass over our household, and keep us safe from this virus. Lord, nothing is impossible for You. We trust in You and know that You will see us through this. We pray for all doctors and nurses and every hospital’s employees. We pray for every person who is tirelessly working in the grocery stores, and for food manufacturers and delivery personnel. We pray for the scientists who are working to find a cure for this virus. We pray for people like my sister Norma, who works in an assisted living facility, and for her daughter Maggie, who is a social worker for the elderly. And for all others, our son Mikos included, who must work to keep this nation afloat. Keep them healthy, Father, and give them special protection and graces to continue to do their jobs. I pray for all those who have been temporarily laid off or who have lost their jobs. Lord, provide for the needs of Your people! Amen.

Philippians 4:6 New American Bible (Revised Edition) (NABRE)

Have no anxiety at all, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, make your requests known to God.

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God Is In Our Midst

St. Michael putting away his bloody sword

Last Tuesday evening our son Mikos called. The phone call was in regard to a conversation he had with a doctor friend of his. The message was how Mike and I needed to be careful and what we can do to prevent from getting the COVID-19. Mike was already in bed, so he had a restful night’s sleep. Not me, I was anxious and turned on the news. The overly dramatic reporting was about the single-digit headcount of how many people had been infected. I finally turned off the doomsday messages and went to bed. Mikos asked me if we were prepared. “Prepared for what? ” I answered. Mikos said “Mom, if either you or dad get sick you’re going to need supplies.” That was my last thought as I got into bed; needless to say, I could not sleep.

The Rosary

I fumbled in the dark, looking for my rosary that I keep on my nightstand, I clutched it and started to pray. I prayed for any fear to leave me and not to be anxious about this ever-changing virus. Throughout the prayer I kept receiving the word “repent, repent.” I asked God to forgive me of any hidden transgressions on my behalf. Then I prayed the Rosary with special intentions, dedicating each decade for God to intervene against this virus, and for the remission of all of our sins. Finally around 3:30 a.m. I fell asleep. As prayerful and faithful as I attempt to be, I got so caught up in the snares of all the negative news and the sensationalism of the virus that it caused me to stumble. I’m happy to report that from this day forth, I will thank God for my health on a daily basis. Today is a new day, nothing has improved with the situation. As a matter of fact, it’s escalated from bad to worse; but I remain faithful and concentrate on keeping my eyes on God. I would imagine that this pandemic has changed a lot of us. We are all praying more, and asking God to help us. We are in this together, in these turbulent times  that we all have to get through. The  Rosary prayers are all found in the Bible, the Apostles’ Creed is found in all four Gospels, The Magnificat (the Hail Mary) can be found in Luke 1:42-48, and the Our Father, the prayer that Jesus gave to his disciples, is found in Matthew 6:9-13. We should all be in prayer. The Rosary is a powerful means of prayer. At three o’clock I will be praying the Divine Mercy Chaplet; this too, is a powerful prayer, asking Jesus to have mercy on us and the whole world. You can google the prayer, so please join the thousands who are praying this prayer at three o’clock.

My niece Leah at Disneyland

 

Leah

My niece Leah was visiting from Arizona last  week. She and her kids were staying at a hotel near Disneyland. They had planned to visit the park for three days. The weather was favorable for the first two visits, but on Thursday it rained; it rained bad news too. The coronavirus was declared a global pandemic, and, shortly after that, it was announced that Disneyland was closing down the park effective Saturday. I knew Leah and her children were at the park, and, in concern for them, I texted her to inform her of the closing. I also thought it odd that Disneyland would make this drastic announcement. I got suspicious and wanted Leah and the kids out of there. Poor Leah was getting text messages to evacuate from her father at the same time. Between the two of us we upset her so much that she thought she was coming down with the virus. I am so sorry for overreacting and making matters worse, but I wanted them to be safe.

 

Supplies

I believe that God will supply all of our needs, because He said he would.

Philippians 4:19 New American Bible (Revised Edition) (NABRE)

19 My God will fully supply whatever you need, in accord with his glorious riches in Christ Jesus.

Tree hugger toilet paper

Mike always makes sure we have plenty of supplies, but we were a little low on toilet paper. I needed to make my normal run to Sprouts for my Ezekiel bread. Much to my disbelief, I found three packages of green, environmentally safe toilet paper there on the shelf,. Without giving it a second thought I grabbed them and put them in my cart. Another shopper came by and said, “Are you taking them all? I just need one pack?” I quickly took one out and placed it in her cart. So now as part of my supplies, I have the smallest rolls of toilet paper ever.  I do not plan to go out and hunt down more supplies because I trust God for all of my provisions. For those who trust the Lord, our supplies will never run dry.

1 Kings 17:14-16 New American Bible (Revised Edition) (NABRE)

14 For the Lord, the God of Israel, says: The jar of flour shall not go empty, nor the jug of oil run dry, until the day when the Lord sends rain upon the earth.” 15 She left and did as Elijah had said. She had enough to eat for a long time—he and she and her household. 16 The jar of flour did not go empty, nor the jug of oil run dry, according to the word of the Lord spoken through Elijah.

Ashes and Sackcloth

Image of Our Lady, painted by St. Luke
Prayer procession around the city of Rome led by Pope Gregory the Great

Have you ever heard of the Castel Sant’Angelo? This castle is located near the Vatican. Perched on top of the castle is a statue of St. Michael the Archangel.

Castel Sant’Angelo, statue of St. Michael the Archangel

In 590 A.D. Europe suffered a great plague; more than 100 million people died as a result. Pope Gregory the Great pleaded for the intercession of St. Michael to help fight this epidemic. Because the plague continued to ravage the city of Rome, Pope Gregory ordered a procession of people reciting litanies to go around the city. The procession included a Miraculous image of Our Lady, painted by St. Luke. Before long the air was cleaned of it’s impurities. Those in the procession heard angels singing around the Virgin’s image. The participants all saw St. Michael standing atop the castle, putting his bloody sword into his sheath. In gratitude Pope Gregory had a statue of St. Michael placed on top of the castle. This victory revealed that the Lord ended the plague, protecting Rome and the Church.

Prayer to St. Michael

St. Michael the Archangel, defend us in battle, be our protection against the wickedness and snares of the devil.  May God rebuke him we humbly pray; and do thou, O Prince of the Heavenly host, by the power of God, cast into hell Satan and all the evil spirits who prowl about the world seeking the ruin of souls.
Amen.

We all need to get on our knees and pray. Prayer will change the course of these turbulent times. Join me in praying the Divine Mercy Chaplet at 3 o’clock every day! Plead the Blood of Jesus over your doorpost so the Angel of Death will pass your home (Passover).

Exodus 12:22-23 New Revised Standard Version Catholic Edition (NRSVCE)

22 Take a bunch of hyssop, dip it in the blood that is in the basin, and touch the lintel and the two doorposts with the blood in the basin. None of you shall go outside the door of your house until morning. 23 For the Lord will pass through to strike down the Egyptians; when he sees the blood on the lintel and on the two doorposts, the Lord will pass over that door and will not allow the destroyer to enter your houses to strike you down.

My Prayer:

Dear Lord, with fear and trembling we fall to our knees. We understand that you have allowed this chastisement for the direction we have taken as a nation. We have permitted sin to rule the world. We ask You to protect us and our household. We plead the Blood of Jesus over our country and the rest of the world. Lord, reveal all offenses that we committed against You. Open our hearts to forgive to allow us to live in peace. Lord, we are here to do Your will! God Bless America and the rest of the world!

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