Life In The Slow Lane

The only thing that is certain about my life is that I have peace, a peace that surpasses all understanding. I have had my health issues, some of which I brought on by my own doing, like when I broke my leg a few years ago. I was coming down the stairs with a hand full of odds and ends to help Joanna, the lady that cleans my house. I noticed a sizable patch of cat puke on the wooden floor. I was thinking that I had to clean up the vomit when I missed the last step and fell. Falling is never a graceful act and the noise startled Joanna. Immediately a sharp pain went up my leg. I hobbled over to the couch and asked her to bring me a bag of ice, but nothing was relieving the discomfort. I called Mike, who helps with when I have a  traumas, and I  cried like a baby, and explained what happened. He rushed home to help taking me to urgent care, and it was clear from the x-ray that my right leg was broken near the ankle. From there, with the most unattractive black air cast and crutches, I made an appointment with an orthopedic specialist the following morning.

The doctor told me that I could not drive for a month and to keep my foot elevated and to sleep in the ugly bulky air cast. For the first week everything that spewed out of my mouth was a gasp, followed by a grunt and ending with a complaint. Once I got upstairs for the night, I stayed in my room and when morning came I stayed downstairs. I had my son-in-law Russ bring one of the office chairs into the kitchen, and I got around by rolling from one part of the kitchen to the other. I was on crutches and that was the worst part of the injury. Crutches were invented in a workshop in hell and I could never get over the discomfort of using them. On one of my follow-up visits I was told that the crutches were too high. No wonder my armpits screamed at every use, and I developed honest-to-goodness stomach muscles from the strain.

When I finally got the clearance to drive, I had to remove my boot in order to do so, this just added to all the extra time it took to get ready for anything.  By this time I had mastered patience, because even if I was in a rush, my pace was as slow as molasses. One day I had a great epiphany  that I should order a scooter for my rehab. Amazon  to the rescue, within a week an adorable blue scooter arrived just in time for a family outing. We were all going to meet at Down Town Disney for a celebratory dinner for Russ. I had not broken in the scooter, but I was certain that it was going to be easy. I tried it around my family room and it felt odd and uncomfortable, but I brushed it off without giving it another thought. We arrived at the hotel the following day and I was going to use the scooter, but Mike thought that we should take complimentary shuttle instead, so we loaded up the scooter and headed out. Downtown Disney was where I broke in the scooter. We arrived at Fossil, the store that my daughter was managing at the time. I kept getting stuck in corners of the already cramped store, and was not getting the hang of the scooter. We leave to go to dinner and suddenly it all came together, the cool breeze from the movement of the scooter was making my hair softly flow back, and I felt like I was part of  an advertisement for a shampoo commercial. I was filled with pride and confidence as people stared and watched me maneuver the new ride. Then it happened. I was traveling a little too fast and the scooter caught a slight lift on the sidewalk. I could hear Mike and Sonja yelling for me to slow down, but it was too late. I flipped over the handlebars of the killer scooter and landed flat on my face. I could hear the foreigners screaming and saying things in other languages, and people gasping with great concern. It took a legion of angels to flip my body around, I held out one hand and said “I’m ok, I’m ok.” From that point a terror gripped my heart and the sweet scooter became a death trap. I wanted my crutches back but I left them at home. In all humility I slowly rolled into the restaurant. Dinner was most unpleasant because I knew that I had to ride that thing back to the hotel. When It was time to leave, I mounted the beast and a massive cramp seized my injured leg. The drama that ensued was my grandkids fighting to take turns on the scooter. Mike and Mikos wanted no part in this and abandoned me. Russ had to push me the rest of the way while Jenny and Sonja laughed most of the way back.

At my next follow up-visit, the doctor was a completely insensitive when asking me,”Who told you to get a scooter? I did not order that for you!” Really? now he asking that question! I wanted to remind him of the time that he made me wait four hours in his office to see him, but I was not going to rude like him. I did ask him for a handicap placard and he agreed with only a one month prescription. I loved that placard and was greatly disappointed when it expired.

It took the full three months to recover from this injury, with each day producing for more freedom. This was a hidden spiritual journey and I learned many things from this experience.  Patience really is a virtue, and it was a hard lesson for me. Healing of  broken bones takes time. I learned to appreciate Mike’s empathetic heart and how he stepped up to care for me. I had to depend on others to take me to doctor’s appointments and to run errands. I could no longer attend daily Mass, but one time my son Mikos took me to church, a very special occasion for me.

I am more mindful of my age and hold on to the rail with ascending and desending the stairs.

James 1:2-4
My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience. But let patience have its perfect work, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking nothing.

 

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Holy Land

 

Good Friday Jerusalem, protected by the Israeli Army (green berets) and Israeli Police

We are going to the Holy Land during Holy Week. It has been two years since our ministry team last visited the Holy Land. For over 30 years we have carried the Cross in drama down the Via Dolorosa. About nine years ago, Joanne, our ministry leader passed on the mantle of the role of the Blessed Mother to me. We reenact the 14 Stations of the Cross on Good Friday. This is a powerful witness to all pilgrims visiting the Holy Land to see first hand what Jesus endured for our sins. It is also a great witness worldwide, as media from many countries feed this through the airwaves.

We enter through the Lion’s Gate (also know as Stephen’s Gate) of the Old City and walk up a steep incline to reach the Praetorium. It is in this area that we apply the stage blood on Jesus. We are protected by both the Israeli Police and well as the Israeli Army. They surround our group, encircling us as we go through the Stations of the Cross. We need this protection because otherwise we would be trampled by the crowds and the media. Once we reach the Muslim section it gets pretty intense. They are not celebrating with us, and their reaction is not welcoming. Sometimes we get spat on and there is always a man with a real whip waiting to attack Jesus; the Israeli Army is always helpful in these situations. The Israeli Army form a wall with their arms locked to keep control of the crowd. Many pilgrims who follow, and are deeply moved by the drama. Jim, from our team will be playing Jesus this year. Jim, is a former real rocket scientist who gave up his six-figure salary to serve the Lord and has recently converted to Catholicism.  My role is portraying the Mother of Jesus. I will do what all mothers do in real life, which is protecting our children. Both Jim and I are spiritually transformed. As I portray the Mother of God, the tears that I shed are real and I cannot control what overcomes me. I just feel the deep empathy of a mother in great pain for her child. I am praying for the needs of others as well, at this time.

Church of the Holy Sepulcher, praying and leaving prayer requests

We are prayer warriors, and our intention is to pray the entire time we are in the Holy Land. Once my friend Pat (from the ministry) and I had prayer requests that were to be left at the Church of the Holy Sepulcher. The problem was that we were leaving that afternoon at 1 PM to catch a flight home. Both Pat and I determined that it was important to fulfill our duty to those that gave us the requests. The Church of the Holy Sepulcher opens at 6 AM so we decided to leave early.  We left the hotel by taxi, our Arabic taxi driver only spoke his native tongue, and we did our best in explaining the way to the Church of the Holy Sepulcher. We were dropped us off at the Damascus Gate, which was unfamiliar to me. The Old City is small so I was confident that we could find our way. The Old City, which has nine gates, is composed of a Jewish Quarter, Muslim, Armenian, and Christian Quarters. We could hear Arabic speech, and the smell of strong coffee filled the morning air, but we were uncomfortable and did not feel safe. Suddenly, from a distance, we could see a group of rowdy young men coming toward us after what seemed to be a long night out for them. We felt so out of place and were trying to remain calm.  As the men came closer the more uneasy it was for us. I know the Old City well and would have eventually figured out how to get to the Church, but this was scary. Suddenly a lone man who seemed to be coming  from  no where, asked us, “What are you doing here?” I stated that we were on our way to the Church of the Holy Sepulcher. He softly said to follow him. We did just that, he led us out of the Damascus Gate, and we walked around the Old City, and re-entered through the New Gate. Then the man said, ” is as far as I can go,” and pointed to the way of the Church. Pat and I were in complete agreement that we might have had an encounter with an angel. We walked into the nearly empty church, and prayed for several hours, before heading back to the hotel.

Vintage hotel hair dryer

For years we have been staying at the Seven Arches Hotel. This hotel, which overlooks the Mount of Olives, provides a perfect view of the Old City, and the gold glistening from the Dome of the Rock serves as our landmark. The staff at the Seven Arches have been around as long as we have, and we have bonded with them, and forming a beautiful friendship with our Muslim hosts. We are excited to hear that the hotel has gone through some renovations, and including a new elevator and I hope new hair dryers as well.

Please forward your prayer request!

 

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Lent Me Your Ear

In preparation for Easter, the greatest of all holy days in the  Judeo-Christian calendar, we are to participate in the three acts in Lent: fasting, almsgiving, and prayer.

Prayer is personal time set aside to talk to God, but before we do this, it should be done with a pure and contrite heart. Lent is a time to  examine and reflect on our spiritual walk. In order for God to answer our prayers we must first purge ourselves of any indiscretions.

The mighty cousins, Lucas, Will, Jacob, and Maddie…my grandchildren

When my grandchildren fight I make them apologize to one another. If the wound involves tears, forgiveness is more of a challenge, but eventually they will forget their transgressions and continue playing. If we shared the same attitude as that of a child  with forgiveness, we could live more peacefully.

The two words “I’m sorry” are simple little words that can change the atmosphere, but yet we struggle with them passing though our lips. Ephesian 4:26-27 states: “Be angry and do not sin; do not let the sun go down on your anger, and give no opportunity to the devil.” This means that not all anger is sinful or harmful. Sometimes when you are unfairly attacked you have the right to be angry; in this case we must make every effort  to reconcile with the offender before the end of the day, or the anger will turn into bitterness.  When we allow the sun to go down on our anger we are turning it into something that consumes us. When anger takes over our mind it all downhill from there. You become a slave to your injustice and it takes hold of your every thought. Sometimes for the sake of peace, the words “I’m sorry” are all it takes. Not “I’m sorry” with an explanation, but  just “I’m sorry “will restore peace. “I’m sorry”  means not to look back, not to replay the offense in your head, but to leave it at the foot of the Cross. We never need to defend ourselves because God is our best defense.

My Neighbor Marisa and the sixth graders of Nohl Canyon Elementary School making sandwiches for the homeless

Our ministry is an almsgiving one and for the past 20 years we have served the homeless on Skid Row in Los Angeles. We continue our efforts during Lent only with the understanding that we are entering the holy season. I make every effort to speak of the Resurrection and the forgiveness of sins. This subject matter to someone who is homeless is received with a hot or cold attitude, there are no lukewarm homeless people. We cannot change the circumstances of the homeless but we can restore faith and offer hope. Many of the homeless community are wounded souls with the inability to forgive. We only have a few minutes to make a difference in their hearts; we plant seed and God cultivates.

Prayer comes natural to me, and if someone ask me to pray for them I will do it until the Lord releases me from that obligation. What I struggle with is fasting. Several years ago it was effortless for me to fast for 10 days on just a protein drink, but now that I’m older it is not so easy. My fast for Lent is omitting sweets and white flour, the two food groups that I love, so this is a huge sacrifice.

Lenten Payer of St. Ephrem the Syrian

O Lord and Master of my life, keep from me the spirit of indifference and discouragement, lust of power and idle chatter. Instead, grant to me, Your servant, the spirit of wholeness of being, humble-mindedness, patience, and love, O Lord and King, grant me the grace to be aware of my sins and not to judge my brother; for You are blessed now and ever and forever, Amen

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